letter to my father

To the greatest dad in the whole world, Sept. 06, 2008

My life as of today isn't as great as most people think it is. I try to put a smile on my face and make it seem as if everything is ok yet I know that it's only half way true. Nobody knows the truth... except for me. Nobody knows what it is I have to deal with and how hard my life is. Nobody understands why it is I am so happy to be at school and why it is I never want to go home. Well to tell you the truth I don't even know where my home is anymore. Home is where the people you love are... it's where your family lives. So why is there this stranger in my home and why won't he just live and why does he hate me and why can't I escape?
Nobody understands or believes that these things are really happening to me. These crazy things so I'm told. All I want to do is escape this crazy life. I want to be able to go to school and be happy with my life. Then again I would really like to have you back but I don't see that happening anytime soon either.
I just want to be able to go home to know that the people there love and care about me and that I won't get yelled at for something stupid like playing my flute or eating dinner. I want him to leave... go back to his family... leave mine... give me my family back. Make everything go back to normal. It only goes back to normal when he's not around. My life is easier to live when he's not around.
So thank you dad. You're the greatest. You just had to leave me alone in this big cruel world with this monster. Sure I have mom but she is lost when she is home. I thought you loved me. I thought I was your favorite. Well guess what! If you loved me so much then all those times you said you would never die and that you were going to live forever and that you would always be there for me were just lies. Stupid lies that I believed! I really can't believe you!
Well... you can come back now... you don't have to hide anymore... you can come save me.... tell me that you were never gone... that you have been alive this whole time. You can tell me that everything is ok... *looks around*. Yeah... that's what I thought... you're still gone.


*tears*


Thanks...
love your oldest daughter,
Megan