Yuletide

The holiday season.

How come I don't feel anything? It just feels like any other time of year... and it's upsetting.
It doesn't feel like the holidays at all. (Even the music is starting to irritate me and I've only been listening to it in the car.)

Oh well, maybe I'm just not ready for the first holiday of this new year. *sigh* Can we just fast forward a week?



P.S. For all my jesus loving friends out there -> Winter is the reason for the season, remember that.

love my sisters!

We have a new addition to the Sigma Alpha Iota family.
Welcome Sarah Hawthorne! <3


I love my sisters! =]

Snow is falling, the semester is ending.

#1
I'm trying out the parting the hair to the side look.
So far so good. =]

#2
This week is exam week. (Actually next week is but most of mine happen to be this week.) Oh and I have 2 performances this week. Time to play awesome flute music! =]

#3
My boyfriend is amazing! I'm looking forward to another weekend spent with him. =] Is it Friday yet?

Fashion blog

http://lookville.com/look/15340/What-is-your-take-on-skirts-over-jeans#id=3122&title=What-shoes-would-go-well-with-this-dress

So I started posting on this fashion blog this summer, forgot about it, and now I've re-discovered it. I don't know if I'm going to continue posting on this site, but at least it gets my name out there. =]

It's time for a break.

Thursday: Leave for VMEA conference early in the morning.
Friday: Conference (get baton!!! =D)
Saturday: Conference then leave to go spend break with Paul. =]
Sunday - Sunday: Spend the entire break with the boyfriend doing thanksgiving/ christmas related activities. Black Friday woo!
Then it's back to Raddyville for the end of the semester.

Until then...

What I still need to get done by Thursday:
1. Reading log for core
2. Research paper for core
3. Computer Music labs

I can do it! =D

Because I had to...

My forever is amazing! I love you Paul Masinelli! =]

Oh, and I can't wait to see you again! ;)

Celebrating and living life.

*My sister will be in Raddyville this weekend. =] What will we be doing? Bowling, homework, watching inception, food adventuring, and exploring Raddy Samhain. Am I excited? We are both stoked! =] What makes this weekend even better? Paul will be here in about an hour. =D A whole weekend with the sister and the person I love. This is going to be great!

*I only have 9 classes next semester. =D It's pretty sweet and I'm looking forward to the end of this crazy semester.

*What else is on my mind? Oh, I have too much on my mind... I'll spare you of said thoughts.


Have a happy Samhain and new year!


P.S. Watched Ugly Americans last night and they said Samhain wrong... that made me an unhappy Megan. That is all. =]

Masquerade

Life is a masquerade.
Some people show their true faces.
Others stay hidden behind the mask.

I have nothing to hide.
I hold my head up high.

Others hide in shame,
With fear in their eyes.

Life is a masquerade,
That we live each day.

On my mind...

It's a great feeling knowing that the one you love wants to spend forever with you.
Life just can't get any better. =]

Busch Gardens with my forever this weekend. I can't wait!

New flute! =]

I love love love love my new flute. It's a Muramatsu GX model! =]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Neno1mqSTvU


I just can't get over how pretty it sounds. <3

Friendship

This is probably my new favorite quote:

"Never shall I forget the times I spent with you; continue to be my friend, as you will always find me yours."
- Ludwig van Beethoven

Green light!

So my friend Dusty has this green light in his room and every time I go in his room I go "woah". It's interesting and I was bored and decided to take pictures. Of course, I decided to do this after shaking my hair all over the place. haha.

So....

I can't wait until October! So many exciting adventures await from the Highlander Festival to my sister coming for Halloween. The only down side is my textual analysis is due... why did I take honors core again? Oh yeah, because "I'm a smart kid" *sigh*. Oh well, I love it.

Bye for now. =]

Always planning for the future.

I would be lost without my planner. I love it so much!

P.S. Thanks for the random picture... people.. lol.

Take me as I am...

Life.
It's easy.
It's complicated.
Fun.
Exciting.
Depressing.
Adventurous.
Musical.

Life: It's what you make it.

and I'm going to hold my head up high and move on with mine whether you like it or not.



I love my life and those that are in it.
P.S. My sisters are awesome! =]

It's time to say goodbye.

No more looking at my past.
Time to focus on the future.

Maybe if this didn't all go to hell a year ago this wouldn't be a problem, but everything happens for a reason.
Forever and eternity you ask? no... it just can't be this way. =[

Who knew this is the way it would have been...

Collection of dreams.

I think one of these days I'm going to write that book (or short story) that I've thought about writing.
A collection of dreams that I've had over the years.
I wrote a snip-it on her a while back, but I have yet to have time to continue.
Should I go through with it?

This is going to be a busy semester...

There is a lot on my mind right now.... geez I don't even know where to being.

I guess for starters I no longer want to be involved in all of the drama at Raddyville. I'm too busy worrying about my life and my problems to have to deal with all of the crap everyone else happens to be dealing with in their own lives. I just want to get my work done, practice more, and have fun. Isn't that what being in college is all about? Doing well in school and having fun in the process? Yes I may make some "dumb decisions" but I'm still going to do what I want to do. So just shut it and move on already.

I just want out of it all...

I just want to... I don't know.


Be myself and be happy with all of my family and friends while not having to worry about everyone's drama.

Until next time.

Good News!

I made wind ensemble at Radford! =]

I have no idea how in the world I managed to do that, but I did and I'm not complaining at all! I seriously saw my name and almost cried. It was insane.

Other than that everything is going well... except for the "creepy dude" issue... yeah... but that's another story.

Life is good and hopefully getting better. Let's see what other good news this life can bring.

I hate FC.

I need out of Franklin County for good. The boys around here are just plain irritating.

Until next time.

Just a snip-it

"Leave the past in the past, gonna find the future."

Simple Plan =]

Oh how I've missed you ever so much so.

Nature Camp video

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1323962588503&subj=808762435

I don't know if this link is going to work, but if it does then you should definitely watch it. This is a video one of the campers made for Nature Camp. (And I just realized that there is a good section where I'm definitely sleeping. haha, oh bus rides)

The end of my time working at PN this summer.

The amazing Rock Climbing Camp group! This week of camp was definitely my favorite of the summer!


After going caving at Nature Camp!


Austin and I deciding what to do with a piece of wood while helping build a roof at Outreach Camp!

My summer at Phoebe Needles has finally come to an end. Phew, talk about an adventure. I'll miss all of the awesome campers and staff that I spent my summer with there, you all are amazing!

Now it's time to focus on the other things such as school and getting my life in order.

Oh the bright side, at least I only have to worry about myself for right now... well I think...

August is approaching

Life is good again at the moment.

All I can say is that I can't wait until August.

*My birthday (which is in a week)
*No more camp
*Busch Gardens trip (August 18th! Let's make this trip awesome!)
*Trip to NOVA to see an amazing person.
*Return back to Raddy


My dream last night was amazing. Soon it will be time to make it come true. =]

Rock Climbing Camp at Phoebe Needles

1 and 1/2 days of preparation
4 days of camping, rock climbing, hiking, rapelling, and peeing in the North Carolina woods.
1/2 day of cleaning and packing

This was an adventure for sure.

Day #1
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7zLuAfYyyQU

Day #2
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4gXBeTvfPHw

Day #3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yw7zo9p_UOc

Day #4
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t0msNumWMDI

Me rappelling at Hanging Rock State Park
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W_A5wRzbiBs

Girl night with senior camp.

Tonight I had a girl night session with some of the girls (after waking up from a movie... why is it I always tend to fall asleep during movies?!?!). Anyways it was fun. I got to know some of them better and paint my nails in the process. =]

Most memorable quote during girl night tonight: (Oh and this is senior camp, aka high school camp)

"I don't know about you, but I would take being unofficial with Pete over having a boyfriend any day." - One of the campers to me.

Apparently he just so happens to be "the cutest guy" who works at camp... yadda yadda




As for now I must rest. Tomorrow is going to be another long and exciting day.

Short and to the point

All I have to say is...

1. Spending the little time I had off with the best friend today was awesome!

2. Tomorrow is ninja day at Phoebe Needles!!! =D

3. I'm looking forward to more staff bonding time this weekend! (Now that all the riffs have been smoothed out once more)



Welcome summer. Feel the magick. I am strong, I can get through this.

Much love <3

I can get through this...

So far everything is going well, but I can't seem to let some things go. It's just not going to be possible right now.... =/

Not to mention I have to deal with another situation that I have no interest in dealing with right now.

Why is it people don't understand that I don't want a relationship and that I don't like anyone at the moment? Am I always suppose to be with someone? Is there something wrong with just trying to find myself right now?

Blah... this probably isn't a smart time to be jotting my thoughts down. I need to just go to bed... yeah, go to bed. Sure.

Summer job training

Let's see where do I begin exactly...

Well how about I just make a list of things that have happened so far. (Be prepared for a complete random order and things since I don't really feel like writing in the first place.)

1. "Oh no" - This is said so many times a day.
2. The high ropes course is by far my favorite. (Being 40ft up in the air is such a thrill. =] )
3. There have been so many staff bonding activities that we have pretty much learned to love one another and deal with our problems without including others. (Well there is one that is slightly distant from the group, but other than that we all get along just fine.)
4. Initiative activities are very time consuming and require a lot of teamwork.
5. It's hot, hot, hot, and humid all the time.
6. There are so many knots to learn, but I think I've got them down for the most part. =]
7. The pool is your friend. (Well, more like water in general)
8. You can never have too much insect repellant.
9. What is that personal space you speak of? Yeah, there is none of that here.
10. Group walmart trips are awesome.
11. Sunday breakfast at restaurant 77 = summer tradition
12. Water = best friend!!!!
13. Randomly busting out into song makes the world go round.
14. Our freezer is stocked with icy pops and ice cream.
15. Moses (the dog) will just continue to smell bad.

So here are some things for now. More will come later when I actually feel like writing and such.

I love you, grandma.

Today I wake up to find out my grandma isn't doing well at all.

Not really paying too much mind to it (It's been like this for a while), I go on with my day. [This consisted of getting lunch with Brittanie and then spending time with my mom at home.] As the day passed my mom kept getting more and more bad news. By this time I knew the day was not going to end well.

Needless to say I just found out that she has passed away.

I think what hurts the most is knowing that everyone got to talk to her Sunday morning and I didn't get to because I was forgotten once again. But it's ok, everything happens for a reason.


... and right now I could really use a hug... or two.

Spinning

Sometimes you need to go outside, throw your hands up in the air, and spin around as you let all your worries disappear.

Everything will be ok, right?

Last week of vacation before camp!

This week is my last week of vacation before working at camp for the summer. =]

I don't know what all I'm doing but I do know that I'm starting it out with a day out with my best friends Jessica and Naomi tomorrow. It's going to be a total girl day... and those are always amazingly fun. (Even if we are boring and like to spend time listening to music and reading our books. =P)


Bad news: Well I did find out some bad news today, but I would rather not share that with the world. I just know that I really need to go down to Florida sometime this summer before it's too late. =/

Breathe in, breathe out

This weekend has been quite the adventure I must say.

Friday:
I began the day shopping with Jessica. Well, this was more like browsing with Jessica since she didn't get her paycheck like she was suppose to that day. Afterwards I picked up Naomi and spent the rest of the day/night with her.
Our night began at the Save the Sound benefit concert. We listened to music (good and bad) and danced "like white girls". (Yes it was silly, but it was fun being able to hang out with friends I haven't seen in a very long time and just let go.) Then we went out dancing and driving around with a couple of other friends. Apparently it's weird that I still don't know my way around Roanoke, but that night I managed. Needless to say we didn't return home and go to bed until around 8am the next morning.

Saturday:
There really isn't much to say about this day seeing as Naomi and I didn't wake up until 3pm.

Sunday:
Today I spent the day with Billy. We were going to go see a move, but there were none we could both agree on watching. So we ventured around the mall where he talked about how bad it would be to see me shop and then we sat around and talked.

Ok... so that part wasn't as fun... actually it was wayyy awkward, but Friday night/ Saturday morning was fun.

Stupid, stupid, stupid

Sometimes I just want to scream. I hate this county that I live in so much (the school system in particular). I'm honestly ashamed to even be associated with it all still. I guess I shouldn't really rant about it on here, but if you would like to know more about how I feel you can just ask me.

Just forewarning you that I will not have a single thing nice to say... not a single thing.

Blog changes

They are coming. Like.... the claw.

Gotta love Toy Story. Until next time.

You have stolen my heart.

It makes me happy knowing that no matter what happens we will always be there for each other. After all, isn't this the true meaning of friendship?

Time to move onward down the path of change...

Google searches

Today I found out that my dad would have been 42.

Oh how I wish he could see me now. He would be so proud to call me his daughter....

The changes are coming...

Before and After. I know these pics aren't the greatest and I apologize for now. More will come later... hopefully. =]

Traveling through the past.

As I read through my previous journal entries I experience all of the changes I have gone through over the years. It's amazing to really see how much I went through and how it compares to what I'm going through now.

... Yet in a way all of the entires relate to each other in some way (other than the obvious).

Now is the time to start adventures unlike the typical problems I face every day. Now is the time to be different... experience a change.

So mote it be.

And once again I can't fall asleep.

Tonight I can't sleep once again. There is so much on my mind and it's driving me insane.

Yet most of these thoughts I don't want to share with the world. Why? Because it's nobody's business, that's why. So I've spent the past 30 minutes writing in my own personal journal. I turned my ipod on and let all of the thoughts flow out of my mind and onto the endless number of pages. Usually when this happens it's due to a lot of negativity, but this time it's different. I'm really happy about my life. Sure things could suddenly go downhill once again, but there is no need to think that way. If you think positive, positive things will happen and so on.

Maybe one day I'll be able to share all the thoughts on my mind. As for now, they shall remain a mystery to the outside world. Always remember, some things are better left unsaid.

Now here is hoping I can get some sleep tonight....

Just a word of advice.

I'm tired of people only talking about how they love and miss their significant others. It's irritating... "I love you, I miss you, I only want to be with you, etc." The whole word does not need to know this information. Sorry, but I need to vent a little bit.

Btw, if I see you constantly doing this on facebook and other such places don't be surprised if I stop talking to you or if you are no longer my "friend".

Until next time. =]

Twists and turns

This summer is going to be full of changes and unexpected events.

No matter what happens I shall lift my head high and keep marching onward.

As for now this is my last day at Radford for a while... and it's time to live it up. =]

Finals week.

Breathe. Sleep. Study. Sleep. Breathe. Study. Practice. Breathe.

Good luck to all that have finals this week.

New Sisters! (as of last Sunday)

<3 I am officially a sister of Sigma Alpha Iota! <3

Congrats to the other new sisters in my wonderful pledge class: Brittanie Roles, Mary Musselman, Michelle Meyer, Stephenie Goad, Heather Deadrick, and Lauren Chatfield

The coaster begins the climb upward.

As things in life begin to "not suck" again you also begin to wonder the location of the point where everything suddenly goes horribly wrong. It's as though we go through life on an indoor, pitch black roller coaster ride. You can't see where you are going or what is around the various twists and turns that lie ahead. All you can do in this situation is hope for the best and not anticipate the worst.

Live life to the fullest, and please don't be afraid to live life.

That is all for now.

Past the point of no return.

Life was going great and now things are starting to go downhill.

Needless to say I'm glad to have good friends who are there for me when I randomly start crying.

I hate doing it, but they always seem to make me feel better.

At least there are some people out there who care.



Until next time.

Oh and people please stop assuming that I'm talking about relationship issues, because unlike you my life doesn't revolve around my relationship. So shut it and move on. People make me so mad.

Sometimes you just...

Sometimes you just need to go out for a walk and let your mind wander for a while.

Feel the flame.

Ten things that make me smile:

1. Randomly seeing my boyfriend as the day passes.
2. Girl nights and conversations.
3. Feeling the wind blow through my hair.
4. Having the right song come on at the right time, as an event happens.
5. Dinner meals and conversations with the family.
6. Getting lost in watching rain fall from the sky.
7. Hanging out with the best friend.
8. Shopping, just shopping in general.
9. The magickal feeling I get when I walk in the grass barefoot.
10. Being around a large group of people that love and care about me.


My life isn't perfect, but I'm going to make the most of it.
So mote it be.


"You are not alone tonight.
Imagine me there by your side.
It's so hard to be here so far away from you."

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white

Somehow I have a bad feeling about how the semester is going to turn out in the end.

We are all going to have a good time and then suddenly BAM... everything changes.

Nobody talks to each other, people leave forever, and.... well I don't think I have to go there.


I don't want to expect the worse, but I can't hide the thoughts that are there. I may not believe the stories that are told, but I do believe myself.

Everything happens for a reason.

The closing of yet another door.

Tonight I took the time to actually write down my schedule for the rest of the month. It really sucks that my first year of college is coming to an end. I'm not ready to be home for an entire summer. It's going to suck, especially if I can't find a job. =[ I'm not welcomed there anyways. All I'm going to do is go home and be bored out of my mind all of the time.

I can't wait until I move out for good. Maybe then I'll finally have a summer to look forward to...

Is tired of...

1. People not being able to wear appropriate, good-looking clothes.
--> Seriously is it that hard to find flattering clothes? If you are fat here is a word of advice... DO NOT wear skinny people clothes. It's doesn't look good and it makes you look more like the cow you are... SO STOP! Also, believe it or not, not everyone can dress in any fashion like me. I make it look good... stop trying to copy me because you are more than likely going to fail.

2. People talking about how they are going to die if they don't see their significant other every day.
--> For your information I'm lucky if I get to see my boyfriend once a day... and he lives within walking distance and we attend the same college. So shut up... you will survive. It's not the end of the world.

3. People in general.
--> I swear I must be invisible on occasion. That's is the only nice thing I have to say.



I just want to live a peaceful life without the drama... so keep it to yourself and keep me out of it. K. Thanks.

Update: March 2010

1. I have decided to not only major in music education, but minor in dance.
I just can't stand not having dance in my life anymore. It's a huge part of me and 2 years of suffering is long enough.

2. My ∑AI test is next weekend and I can't officially say that I'm not at all worried.

3. Mission statement for myself: I will go far in life, no matter what or where it takes me.


Now off to homework... and practicing...

Life is a roller coaster

Sometimes words can't express the way I feel about certain situations.

I can't always be perfect and I don't, by any means, try to be perfect.

Yes I know I'm changing, but it's for the better.

I could say a lot more but some things are better left unsaid for the world to see.


This post is not directed towards anyone.

Blog Layout Update =]

I figured it was time for a small change.

It might change again later but for now this seems to please me.

St. Patrick's Day

What did I do?

I showed off my Sigma Alpha Iota MIT shirt! =D
I went to class.
I took pictures. =]
I had dessert with my family through skype.
I watched South Park with my boyfriend and other friends.
I stayed up wayyyyyy too late.

What happened the next day?
I was lucky enough to wake up (without the help of my alarm) at 7:45am.
I made it in time for my 8am percussion test.
I managed to stay awake during all my classes. =]


Was this a good St. Patrick's day?
I do believe so. =]

just breathe...

Here is an old pic I found in my 4th grade yearbook. =]

As the break comes to an end I shall remanence...

Best night: Going out to the park and dancing with the girls (Naomi, Dee, and Kia)
Best day: Going to Lynchburg mall with Jessica and Naomi (even though I swore Jessica was going to get us killed)
funny video link below:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F5EHPAsiml0

Yes not everything went as planned and I got none of my observation hours complete but these were such things I couldn't control.

Right now I'm just ready to take it easy tomorrow, get some laundry and packing done, go out possibly that night and then return to Radford Sunday.
I'm ready to be reunited with my friends and boyfriend who I miss ever so much so.

this break...

hasn't turned out great so far.
1. I can't get in my observation hours thanks to the school board.
2. I have no plans until Friday night (if that)
3. The only exciting night so far was going out with the girls Saturday night.
4. The board meeting made me mad.
5. I'm the only one that tries to clean this house that I live in (oh and it's still not anywhere close to being clean).
6. My sister complains about everything constantly.
7. My brother doesn't even want me home.
8. The only people I've talked to from school are Mary, Lauren, Sarah, and Michelle.
9. I got in trouble for taking Craig to get job applications with me. (Sorry i like company)

and I could go on but nobody needs to read about me ranting about how my life sucks at the moment...

Here is hoping to a good weekend at least.

Alice in Wonderland

I must say this movie was better than I expected it to be. I would encourage all that liked the original Disney cartoon to open your mind to a new adventure of Alice in Wonderland. That is all for now.

The world keeps turning...

This semester is flying by... it's hard to believe that I'm almost done with my first year of college. So much has changed in my life already. I feel like an entirely different person. It's going to be so weird living at home all summer without the freedom and the independency I get when I'm at school. Hopefully I'll be able to go on some vacation because being at home for 4 consecutive months is not going to go over very well. Yet who knows... maybe I'll have a good summer... idk. I just hope I can get a job.

Yet I digress. It's hard to believe that I'll be signing up for my class at the end of March and that spring break is almost here. It feels like I just moved in and met everyone. Next year is going to be so weird. Especially if Paul ends up moving somewhere far away. =[ I know I'll be able to handle him not being here, but it's going to take some getting used to.

I shouldn't worry about these things though. Life is too short to worry about things. Sometimes you need to just take this time to enjoy the experience and live for the moment.

I could really use a best friend to talk to because this blog thing is not going to work for all of my thoughts and problems. =/

Beware of sharp objects

So I went to go get my dorm key out of my backpack yesterday and in the process of doing so I cut myself on some sort of sharp object. (That I still don't know of still...) I know, good job right. Well I thought I was going to be perfectly fine until I saw how deep the cut was... then I freaked out thinking I wasn't going to be able to play flute (I cut my left middle finger.. oh and I was only worried about being able to play my flute). So I called Dusty since I knew he was constantly getting hurt and would know what to do... and Paul was at rehearsal. Dusty then took me to the clinic where I freaked out again thinking I was going to have to get stitches or that they were going to hurt me. =/ Luckily the bleeding finally stopped and the cut was easily covered with some durmabond. Oh... and I could still play flute. =]

I would just like to take the time to thank Dusty for being there for me. You're a great friend and I'm glad to have you in my life. It really means a lot to me. =]

I would put a pic of the cut up, but it's not pretty. So I'll take the time now to show off my awesome transformer band-aids! XD

Sisterhood

I've realized that I have yet to mention my future sisters in my blog. Sorry girls.

I'm currently an ∑AI (Sigma Alpha Iota) member in training.
It's a whole lot of fun and all of the sisters are wonderful, loving people.
Yes the process will be long and not always easy, but I feel in the end it will be worth it.

All of the rest must remain a secret. =]

love and roses ∑AI<3

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=618957452453&ref=mf

Spring Break

I'm going to Florida. XD
I'm going with 4 awesome people!
I'm going to Busch Gardens. [for 2 days!!!]
I'm going to see my grandparents.
I'm going to the beach. XD
I'm going to get some Publix black cherry soda!!!!
then... I'm going back home... to the cold... but let's not think negative thoughts here people. =]


"Tampa Tampa Tampa Tampa..." - Brittanie
"Ok, that's enough." - Me
"But I'm sooooo excited" *smiles* - Brittanie
"Yeah, but that gets annoying after a while." - Me
"Ok...." - Brittanie
lol!

What is on my mind?

People always want to know what it is on my mind... sometimes I believe that there is too much on my mind.

Am I the person I'm suppose to be?
What is going on in my life?
Is this the right decision?

Well I suppose I need to just take this time to chill and not worry about things. Whatever happens, happens.

Everything is going to be ok... my life may not be perfect but it's pretty darn good at the moment. I'm not going to let the little things get to me.

I do realize that I'm changing a little every day.
I really noticed it yesterday.
It's just part of life.

Well I could ramble on for hours but I've decided to keep these thoughts that run through my head to myself for now.

So for now this is goodbye....

Stress be gone

As I go through and read my blog I realize that I have, or I guess had, a lot of issues in my life. Then I think to myself...

"Self, what the hell is wrong with you? You never wanted to be this person. You were never going to let these stupid things get to you, so what is up with this???"

Then I answer saying I'm only human and life isn't going to be 'picture perfect'.

Yes, life is good now. I have awesome friends, an awesome boyfriend, good grades, and now I have an awesome group of pledge sisters. (Yay for Sigma Alpha Iota =])

Live for the moment. Don't sweat the small stuff.

Simple things. It's time to live a stress free life. This starts now.

Everything falls into place

As life progress and everything starts to fall into place I realize...

this is a forever kinda thing...

and every time I think about it I can't help but to smile.

this is life

Dear Dad,

I wish you were here. Life just isn't the same without you here... I just realized that it has been 8 years since you passed away.

I have changed so much too. You would be so proud of me... I just know you would. Life is kinda stressful right now but it isn't as bad as I thought it would be. Between college and life at home everything has become a whole lot easier.

Sigh... I just don't know where exactly to begin. Heck I can't even decide what to write about. I just wanted to write about something before I fell asleep tonight.

Well that is all for now I suppose.

love your oldest daughter,

Megan