School (as of 2-24-09)

School really sucks. (brief summary)

1st period: AP Calculus
-- work.. work...work... then lots of homework (repeat). Not to mention that I don't even understand what we are doing in the class and we have an ap prep session this Saturday. Oh what fun... not!

2nd period: College Physics
-- I sit in class and watch my teacher dance the horrible physics dance while spitting out equations and writing random numbers and letters down frantically. Yeah.. he is kinda creepy. I have come to learn that the only way to learn and understand is to not listen to a word he says and just read the book. So now I watch him dance and mute all the words. (Kinda like watching a silent movie)

3rd period: College Government
-- My govt teacher is awesome! As much as he is suppose to be unbiased he's not. We just pretend that he is to keep him out of trouble. (Oh and so we don't have to ever do anything other than sit there and listen to him go on and on about something that we have never heard of before.)

4th period: Symphonic band
-- Easiest class ever... oh and I'm first chair flute again. There is nothing better than being first chair. :D


So that is my school life right now. I know its not much but it is getting late and I'm starting to get sleepy. More information will come later.

disappear

Writing my thoughts down makes my worries disappear. Whenever I write something down I feel a big weight being lifted off my shoulders. At least I know that now I have put my thoughts out there and have no secrets to keep inside. (Who cares if nobody will ever read what I have to say or just can't read it because I have kept the papers locked away from everyone. At least I know they are out of my list of worries.)

Now it is time to move pass all my worries. To not worry about who I love or want to be with. To let my feelings be free and not have to worry about keeping any secrets.

It is time to get rid of all the lies and spread the word of truth.

It is time to let the world know how I really feel inside.




--> Too bad I just can't let myself do that <--
*sigh* I love you. I need you. Don't go away.

My life as of now. [Feb. 2009]

I want everything to go away.
I feel wrapped in negative energy that won't let me go.
My friends try to help me escape.
One has almost succeeded.

Yet... I can't seem to accept the offer... yet I want to... but I just can't.



Therefore I will just stick with talking to you on the phone and hiding in your cubby in band class. lol! We're innocent... I think not. lol! (You wouldn't understand)

Why are you so irresistible?

*sigh*